On Wanting

wanting what’s gone
but was never found
in my heart and my mind
my self will rebound

wanting to share
with her and was true
but I’ll be alone
though her truth’s overdue

wanting much more
but living with less
have I wasted the years
to myself, I profess

I do confess but learning about
the shallows of low
I’ll find my way out
this truth I’ll know

from the sky of my soul
to the cellar of pain
someday soon
myself, I’ll regain

I will be whole again
from the kid deep inside
to be the man who still exists
with someone I confide

I will not resist as I slowly learn
it comes from within
on wanting and waiting
and feeling the yearn

my heart has been true
and my sons will soon know
working and wanting
and watching them grow

I will never give up
I will not bow
I’ll be reaping the efforts
of the deeds that I sow